Saying without thinking

I don't know what had happened. It's just like after I posted 5 minutes later, it's gone. Completely gone. Back to the first few posts of 7 hours ago. I've checked, that bastard doesn't have the priviledge to merge or delete any of the posts. Also, 3 of them are not around. What the fuck just happened? I'm still confused right now. Maybe he asked some of the other team to do it. Maybe some staffs did it.

Why? Why delete it? I fucking hate that bastard so much and I PAWNED HIM TOTALLY. He doesn't deserve to be given an Elite tag and also to be known as one of the veterans. He sucks. Just look at the previous section where he got owned by the administrator. He likes saying stuff without any solid proof to back up his POVs. And he loves saying BULLSHIT. I saw him saying that. But he edited his post. Coward.

I'm still wondering who edited the whole damn thing? Wasted my efforts damn.

Similar to my case

I'm having the same problem as this Form 5 student here. An article from the papers last week:

I AM in Form Five. My younger brother is in Form Two. We do not have a good relationship and often argue with each other. He is a bad boy and everything he does makes me very angry.
When I talk with him and tell him not to do stuff, he refuses to listen and even answers back. Each time we argue, I get very upset, frustrated and even cry. I hate him and sometimes, I feel like killing him. I do not know why. I feel bad right now.
Whatever I have done is for his own good but he does not appreciate it. He does not understand me. He is wrong but he does not want to admit that. What can I do? How can my life be happier without him influencing it? I know I should not make my life hard because of him but I cannot do that. Is it right to allow him to do what he likes and follow what he says? Should I close my eyes and pretend that I do not see anything just to please him?

I so can't wait for the reply on this Wednesday. I might paste the reply here as well.

Giving up

I'm quite confused right now. Or should I say very confused? I sent the email on Tuesday evening and only received the reply yesterday evening. Heck, it was too late. I can't blame anyone except myself. I have to take full responsibilities on what I've done. No, it's what I've NOT done. What I did wasn't enough. I shoud have done more so I won't have any regrets. No. No point regretting now and feeling sorry.

But the lengthy time I have to wait for the results is torturing me. I still have one more day left which is next Wednesday. I'm suppose to check with the mid results yesterday and I saw Sir in his office but I really don't have the guts to look at it because I'm afraid I might lose concentration after that since I have to proceed to the hall for another paper.

I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do. Send an email to the Head regarding my transfer? Or talk to her directly? But none of the decisions are made final yet, so it's useless to meet her anyway. I need some time to make my performance less flawed. It's not that I'm not daring to do it but I want more certainty. I don't want to waste anyone's money so I need more time to consider first.

If I really didn't make it, at least allow me to have the supplementary paper. I've never taken one and am very sure I do not wish to take one because it's going to make myself full-loaded the next month, and that means I have no more free time to daydream. =(

As I said, I don't want to waste money on this stupid thing. Damn, I pretty sure I got too much influence from a who-always-takes-things-for-granted friend. I shouldn't care much about our friendship anymore, I shall move on and you can take your own sweet time to find the right guy to be your husband and pop out some babies real quick. I had fun in the conversation yesterday but frankly, it was not the right time to have those kind of chats. Everyone was in dilemma and both of my closest after-school friends are giving up so easily. How can you people just give up as if nothing big really happens?

I am truly disappointed.

I might talk about this again sometime later because it's really bugging me a lot and I couldn't get enough sleep.

Lazy to update

Damn, I always had something in mind saying,"Ok, I'm going to blog about this and that, blah blah." By the time I logged in here, my mind is blank!

I'm suppose to be doing some last-minute revision right now. Too bad I'm surfing around aimlessly AGAIN and listening to weird song by Iced Earth. I know I'm going to have real tough time staring blankly at the exam papers later. Huhu...

No point regretting since I have to go prepare myself RIGHT NOW!

Wish myself best of luck. Hope whatever the questions will be some scientific terms are going to pop up in my head, hopefully!!!!!

kthxbye.

Random thoughts

Basically today's entry is like those 'oh no, I'm running out of ideas' types of posts. I once read someone's blog saying, "If you think you can't keep the blog for long, better not start one."

I don't agree with that. I mean, hey, we only get to live once so no harm trying to start a blog. It's pretty fun since you can bitch all you want about anything, everything and nothing. xD

My way of blogging - log in to Blogger.com --> proceed to Confess now Blog --> click Create post --> rest my fingers on the keyboard and type all the way whatever comes to my mind.

I have no plannings in my writing at all. Not like some other bloggers who blog for the sake of blogging. I blog for the sake of expressing myself. I guess I'll keep this page for a long time so in the future, I mean, it's nice referring back to what you had wrote for the past few years.

No one knows about the existence of this blog. When friends asked,"Hey girl, do you blog?"

"Erm No. *smiles* "

Non-stop complaints

over the petrol price.

Fuckers should stop complaining, stop organizing some shitty demonstrations already, yeah, AS IF the government or whoever-in-charge will give a shit about it. I'm so sick of listening to all the whinings every day. At home, at college, at forums, at malls hearing some morons complaining...Bah!

It's over. Decision is final. Like two months ago?!

Spend so much on cigarettes, that's fine to you. Spend so much on clubbing, that's also fine to you. Spend so much on phone bills, that's more fine to you. Spend more on petrol - which is something you need, complain and start blaming the government.

Learn to save up money!!!!!

Whenever something BIG happens, the fucking rakyats will blame the GOVERNMENT. No one will take up the blame and say,"I am the MAN." instead pointing fingers at everyone except themselves.

Blah blah blah.

"I have no money" "I'm poor" "I wish I have rich boyfriend"

Biatch.

Using a mobile phone worth above RM2000, owning a foreign car (well, at least not a Proton) at such a young age, received a RM10,000 ++ birthday gift from parent (I'm not joking at all!) still hoping a richer partner.

I shouldn't care.

Limits I said

This post was written on Tuesday, 28/03/2006. Due to the sucky Internet connection, I couldn't post it.

I don't mind joking around or people making fun of me IF you're not going over the limit. Yes, the LIMIT. I once said about it before and that limit implies to any situations regardless of anyone. But if you cross the line, I am going to be damn fucking annoyed.

I know I always rant but I don't do that in real life. I mean who would ever care about what you're ranting as if they give a shit about my life. The answer is NO, they don't. That's why I chose to bitch about everything and anything in here.

Whether I look innocent to you or not, it's none of your fucking business. If you are choosing to judge one IN FRONT of that person itself, make damn sure you choose the RIGHT person. Too bad you chose the wrong kid, and people are starting to bitch about you already. Even if you're going to criticize someone, there is always a limit no matter how close that person is to you.

I'm pretty sure that you're NOT going to annoy me again for the next few days if it's not forever. I shall see.

Just because I treat everyone nicely, that does not mean I can be easily bullied. Dang. Whyam I so nice? Who cares if you can drive up to 160km/h? There's NOTHING to be proud of at all. Besides, it's ONLY 160km/h and what you did was against the law. Worse still if you expect a GIRL to treat you an expensive lunch. Fucking thick-faced soccerhead. I thought you were nice at the first place and the first impression you gave was pretty good. I was wrong. Now I see more of your trueself already.

And asking a girl's mother to COOK for you. That's unbelievable after what *name censored* told me. We've known you for only almost 4 months and you expect the others to do something what you requested? Naive kid.

You can never find any girls in the world who like another person to pull her hairband away from her nicely and neatly tied hair. Which girl will ever like that??NO! NO ONE!!!

Another thing. Getting drunk in the public is nothing to be proud of as well. If you're drunk, but still remain conscious that's fine. Running around naked at the street isjust damn fucking shameful. You're no longer a teenager anymore for Fuck's sake.

I wonder how your girlfriend can tolerate with you.

Who cares, anyway?

^_^v

I am going to erupt soon

How PATHETIC it is when you're downloading something and it's almost done, your fucking pathetic brother just off the damn fucking computer. I am damn fucking pissed now. I waited for more than 5 hours and this is not the first time already goddamnit.

*ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR*

kthxbye.

Felt a little left out

Dang. Most of my classmates are damn frickin' smart. Yes, SMART. Not only smart, but also HARDWORKING. Today, I just got to know that one of my classmates is 25 years old. 25!! Geez...I feel so young. Hmm...

We were always taught that there is no shortcut in studies. It's either you prepare well for your assignments or screw up your accessment marks. I didn't have strong foundation. I regretted. Arrghhhh!!!!

I should have taken A Levels or STPM or at least SAM. DAMN. All university foundation programmes SUCK ass and they tend to make you struggle during your degree years.

I need motivation. Yes, someone motivates me. That girl in my class. YES......

Gotta work hard. Work hard. And please, Yun, STOP practising last minute study.

But, but, but...............

Just STFU and go study.

kthxbye

Just like drugs

#Class attendance
The more you cut classes, the more you're addicted to cutting classes. Worse if you have someone to help or support you. For instance, You ask your classmates to sign attendance for you and the fact that is you never appear in class.

I never liked signing attendance for ANYONE because I think it's a sinful act. I feel bad. I really do...

#Computer
You're just a box. An electronic box. But you're so beautiful on the inside. I'm willing to look at you from day till night. You helped me so much on my assignments. Thank you. THANK YOU. You're one of my very limited entertainment I had at home. And I bet I'm not the only one who loves you. Millions of people out there shower more love to you than me. Brilliant.

#Chilli
You're hot. ;)
Yummy. The more I have you, the more I lust for you. I don't mind sweating either. You can make a bowl of plain white rice sooo tasty. And you provide so many varieties. I don't mind taking any type, as long as you're hot. :)

#Clairol
You smell sooo good. I've been choosing you since the past few years. Mother doesn't like you, she said you're not moisturizing enough, but I love your scent so much. You made me smelling my own hair again and again.